I am struggling with winter. I feel hungry all the time and snack on lots of fruit and stuff and end up eating a very small tea so I can stay under points. I feel cold all the time and not at all motivated to exercise. I have let my non-negotiable behaviour become negotiable.
I am using excuses to not exercise.
This week it was because I had my implanon removed and then replaced with a new one and had a very sore arm for a few days. Yes, I still could have gone to the gym and done SOMETHING but I didn't. In fairness, its on the underside of my arm so no matter what I did, it rubs or presses against my body and drives me nuts but I still could have done SOMETHING and I didn't.
I gained 1.1 kilos at weigh in. That takes some dedication! I don't think it could all be a real gain so I am wondering if the new hormones have sent me a bit off, I guess next weeks weigh in will tell the story!
I am back up over 90 now (90.7 to be exact) and I am finding myself spending more and more time trying to fend off negative thoughts. I feel fat, I am drinking too much diet coke and basically want to hibernate until the sun comes back.
To top off this week, I woke up at 4am Friday morning with bad eyes again. I knew I had to work Friday afternoon so I started treating and put drops in every hour in the hope that my eyes would be presentable for work. They weren't but I went anyway. After pleading my case that I am not contagious with the boss, I started work and two hours into my shift my head was thumping and my eyes were burning so I went home again and went to bed.
Now its Saturday and my eyes are still sore and red. I have a 21st to go to tonight but I think it will be a very quiet mellow night.
Tomorrow I am walking with the girls and I think that will do me the world of good. I need to get out and get physical.
Monday I am doing a pump class. I did it a few times last year before I had my back flare up so I am going to get stuck into it again. Tuesday I expect to be very sore!!
I am going to exericse, I am going to restore my fitness, I am going to accept things I cannot change (like the weather) and change things I can (like my weight). Time to stop fluffing around and get this weight moving again. I think I am going to have to train like an athelete for that to happen so that is what I will have to do. I am going to work out a training plan and I am going to stick to it.
Ok thats my pledge, I have put it here now (along with a LOT of whinging) so I will do it. I have lost 38 kilos (ignoring my gain last week) and I will turn that into 40 kilos very soon.
Thanks for reading, positive Jo is on holidays and will be returning shortly.
Joanne.
Sunday November 8
40 minutes ago
7 comments:
Hey Jo
I think we have all struggled with the winter as it has been so cold this year, but as you said no excuses, you have taught me so much along this journey and i have now got a new motto "measure your success by what you gain not by what you lose!" and in the back of mind I hear your voice saying we are not defined by numbers!!LOL You will get through this, and we will all be here to kick your butt along the way just as you kick ours!!LOL Have fun walking with the girls tomorrow I'm sure they'll get you motivated!
Love Sam x
Hey Jo,
sorry to hear you aren't feeling 100% but well done on giving yourself tough love :) hope your eyes and arm feel better soon, all the best with your fitness and food this week, just remember what you taught all of us, it's all about being faster, fitter, better, stronger...the number on the scales is just an added bonus :P
all my love,
Suz
Jo, I can so relate to this post. I hate winter and I always struggle to lose weight in winter compared to summer. My only advice (because you know what to do) is to make certain days exercise days and don't make any excuses not to do it. It's like going to work. You have to work so do the same with exercise. Get stuck into that wii when Amy is at school.
Look forward to catching up for a walk this afternoon. The sun is shining so that's a start!!
Hey Jo, you can do it! But you already know that...your post shows you've worked out a plan. And we all have these periods. Winter can be a time when we want to hibernate and a lot of people seem to be affected by the change in season. Hope your walking goes well today and all your training too. Take care!
Jo, you and I started at the same time and we've lost a comparable amount of weight. I also struggled with the onset of winter (my struggle was a month ago now, I live in NZ so it got cold earlier.) I've found new energy for exercise by formalising my exercise programme. I've joined a dance class with a friend, a masters swimming group with another friend, and committed to a half marathon in August. Suddenly I'm back in the swing again and the exercise is so much easier to do even though its cold. I'm swimming 3 times a week, its warmer in the pool than out, and gyming 3 times a week too.
Glad to see you committing to it again. We can do it!
Grizabella
Jo - it takes courage and determination to achieve what you've achieved so far! That motivation will be back with you before you know it, you can't keep good people down for long.
Hi Jo,
I'm back....
Denise
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